Salvation
I always get scared thinking about my family's non-belief in the God that I so want to introduce to them. Because I know how strong their "disbelief" is (because of whatever historical reason), I don't know what I am supposed to do. From many years ago when they said that I don't have to bother asking them to go to church (but that I can hold on to my own belief) because everyone has his/her own religious freedom--from then on I have not once invited them to anything. Mostly for fear of rejection. Or for fear that I will get "scolded" or put down because I'm trying to force something.
I know God is able. I also know God will answer prayers--mountain moving prayers. But when it comes to talking to my family about Christ, I am really really freaked out. Because of this too I even have trouble praying for them (in a consistent way)--it is as if I block that part of my life out completely... I keep asking myself why too. Why is it that it's the closest people who I have problem evangelizing to? Even scarier is whenever I think about the verse saying that if one person in the family is saved, the whole family will be saved through him/her. What if it won't happen in my case?
Was briefly chatting with a friend who said that she was sad when a family member passed away but had not accepted Christ yet. Will it be the same for me? If I really cannot be the Salt and Light to even my family, what good am I?
posted by Yummy @ 10:14 AM
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I contemplated on similar question before. Although I am not technically in any religion, my search for self understanding and spirituality have brought me closer to God and Presence than I have ever been.
Several years ago, I read something about Ganhdi. He said something like, "You are the universe and the universe is you." At the time, I didn't fully comprehend the meaning. Yet I remember moving to tears just upon reading it.
If I am the universe and the universe is me. Family is in there as well. Whatever transformation I go through, my family is not left behind.
I never ever told my parents what I learned from my spiritual practice. Yet, I see how my own change changes them without a word being said.
Just in the past few months, I see my mother transforming right in front of my eyes. I wasn't the "cause" of the change but my own transformation and hers are not seperate.
I don't know what it means for salvation. But I would think that the closer you are to God, your family is not far away despite the apperance of non-interest.
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